My PhD

I have decided what I will study in my spare time whenever that comes around. For one I want to learn as much as possible about psychology. Second I want to learn how to paint and draw as best as possible.

They are interrelated in the sense that one will help the other. I shall explain...

The study of psychology will lead me to understand the insanity that lies in my own mind. The millions of things I don't understand ultimately teaching me the many options and avenues that are available to walk down.

The art would lead me to express these ideas that I would love to put down on paper and i just don't feel I could show with words.

I come up with what I think would be a great idea for a drawing but I do not have the skills to do it. For example as I was driving today I got the odd feeling liek I was just falling off of the face of the earth. When I got to my destination I saw on the wall a painting of the two hands where god is reaching to touch man. It is a great representation of what may people believe in. To that affect I feel I could to the same, but probably on a much smaller scale. Maybe 5 people would agree with it in the world, but thats enough for me just so I don't feel alone.

Just imagine a picture of the earth and it has a face made up of the rough terrain on the planet like mountains for eyes and a continent for a nose etc. and out of the left eyes is a a hue water fall with a person in it dangling away from the world. Or it could be more like a sad smiley face with the earths general make up on it with a big tear and a small person in it.

But I guess my current life question about everything is..., how can you hold on to everyone in you life and should you?