Dear FCC...

You go around saying you are protecting the US from all of the horrible things out there but you don't. You lie. I do not feel protected.

I almost fuckin died today while driving to work, and guess whose fault it is..., yours. I'm on my way to work minding my on business, driving at a decent speed in an average day of traffic, and the music on the radio fades down just a bit then I hear a blaring HONK on the out of nowhere I swerved a bit out of the sheer fear in my heart of being destroyed by an oncoming truck. That was completely uncalled for and needs to never happen again.

So pretty much you can't say fuck on the radio but loud random noises indicating sudden death such as honking, sirens, or people screaming can be blared on the radio at any time. That is not right at all. You know 90% of radios listeners are driving, at least don't let it happen during rush hour.

I don't blame people for swerving wildly while driving anymore, I just think to myself "Damn that FCC." This is exactly why nobody wants to listen to the radio anymore.

Fix that shit.

Attn: all hiring managers

I hate you all. Seriously I do. Its not only because you bastards wont give me a job, but all of you are pretty much douche bag liars."We'll let you know by Friday whats going on." Fucking 2 weeks later I'm waiting around beating off 5 times a day so I can sleep more to pass the time.

I mean come on, did all you fuckers forget what its like to not have a job, or did you get jobs and everything handed to you your whole life. Or maybe you just worked hard and were given good advice since you were 2 years old and knew exactly how to get everything you wanted.

In any case I didn't have that shit. I was told "go to college so you can get a great job." now I'm stuck working in a bike shop making slightly more than minimum wage. I love my job, but student loans is what fucks up the whole ordeal. So basically I got fucked by college.

If i just worked for 4 years instead making a relatively low salary I could have invested the money and probably overall made more more money that i will given the principal + interest i will be paying on loans.

I would have been perfectly happy making a decent wage doing some type of hard labor like oil rigging or something with high physical toil, too bad I cant afford it now.

I am probably gonna complain here all the time until I am not struggling financially.

Life.... while drunk

So today I hae been doing some thinking, and I hae figured out that I essenially do not know who I am. I realize this may be said or thought by many people but as many times as I have come to this situatiation, I think this time may be different.

What am I looking to get out of life? How can I just turn it into video game principles and "win" before I run out of time?

I have lived in a series of If then statements saying "If this happens, then I will do this" but i am finding I should just let that whole idea go, but it is hard to let that go. making decisions and being proactive on certain issues will make me at fault for any further mistakes. I will not be able to say, "well I only did this because of this," i will be in complete control wich will be very scary.

My paranoia is starting to get the best of me i guess. Or am I just giving up and not being willing to think things through and fight for the perfect ending I am looking for? Its so hard to know when to give up or to keep on fighting.

Soo many questions....

Absinthe

Okay, SO I guess I am a little bit late on this but apparently absinthe is legal. I have waited all my life to try this stuff, and now I have the chance. Although I am a bit scared. The New York Times says "The word comes from the Greek apsinthion, which means undrinkable." Now thats all fine and dandy but what kind of undrinkable do they mean. Is it destroy my liver and kidneys undrinkable? Or is it vomit uncontrollably undrinkable? I'm guessing a bit of both but either way I gotta try it. The US would never let a substance that is volatile to a persons health ever hit the market... unless it makes a substantial amount of money.

I wonder if its better than tequila???

We'll see.

Carpe Diem

Today is the day I move out. I always thought this would be the day that I was fully prepared for but sadly it is not. I'm taking a huge risk by going to an area I've never lived in and looking for a job since I'm currently unemployed.

Though I will admit I am way less prepared than I always hoped. I am extremely excited. I have so many things going for me. The most important being the support of my friends and family.

"One does not discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time" -Andre Gide

No matter how long it takes or how hard things get I will not fail