I had to do it

A lot has happened over the past few months. I grew a new ultra hate for my current job, I have a girlfriend, and more than ever emotions have been running more rampant than usual. but as usual I have been seeing things I dont understand. More recently I have grown the urge to write about them.

Crazy thing number 1

I stayed on a plantation....

yes I did. And it was the plantation that my girlfriends mom lives on. how fuckin weird is that. If you arent black you may not already know that I freaked the fuck out. Yes I did. It was crazy. A plantation!!! I didn't know that they existed still until recently. I was hoping they were all burned and became memorials. But obviosly that would not be practical because the US would lose millions of acres of farmland which is understandable. But fuck that shit was scary. plus I was fucking wasted.

Then thee was a door that all of a sudden moved!!!! because it wast fuckin there..., but then it wasnt. Anyway it was scary and all i had was alcohol. I dont think that shit will normally make you hallucinate.


Crazy thing number 2

I had a meeting with my employers...

I am a entry level 1 (helper installer)...

from the sounds of things I am supposed to help some one better than me with their job. Yet i do my job alone or with someone with the same title as me who I have more experience than and because I have this college education from a private school which everyone told me would be helpful I ear an extra 75 cents an hour after only 2 months when it would take a High School education person 6 months to have obtained that. WOW I'm just great. It was also great teaching people who were hired as my boss how to do their job. That was fun.


Crazy thing number 3

I was pulled over by a cop....

It was seemingly a perfectly normal stop. I was pulled over doing 35 in a 25. But there were a lot of odd circumstances. I was driving down a one lane road. between 2 other drivers on a one lane road ( one in front one in back). I was going down a hill. and this his is steep enough that if you were on any bicycle without pedaling you'd be traveling at about 35 mph. So as a black male..., I was afraid. I was told that it was a Friday night and many people were being pulled over for drunk driving. I was in the midst of training for a triathlon so i hadn't drank in weeks. I had my entire car searched because of the possibility of drunk driving and for the possibility of weapons which i was asked were under my possession several times. My car was searched by 2 cops.

I was afraid id be killed for no reason to be quite honest so i let the search my car. plus I was too broke to pay a ticket. It was just a weird mishap.





Anyway Im drunk now... till next time



I hope I'll write more

Learn how to have conversations

I really need to get a grip on greetings and small conversation. Every time I interact with a new person I get nervous and always fuck it up so with in the first few seconds I speak they think I'm an idiot. I was in Toys r us buying a guitar for Rock Band as I am walking to the checkout line the cashier says hi, and my immediate response to that was "fine" There was no "how are you" or anything like that. I'm just jumping threw the conversation and destroying the normal order of events.


I need some sort of opening conversation class or something

A conversation with the neighbor

Sam: I have these birds crawling in my vents, and they just keep pissing me off. One day I saw them fighting, I saw one just pecking the other to death, but they make so much noise they just kept pissing me off.

Me: you should have just killed the one getting fucked up

Sam: I couldn't because i didn't know the situation. what if the one bird just came home to his wife cheating. That would be fucked up if he had to die for no reason

I LOVE MY NEIGHBORS

High Fashion vs. Pornography

High Fashion is to normal clothes as Pornography is to normal sex

I cam to think of this over the past couple of days while watching Americas next top model and Project Runway over the past few days with my roommates. (my story is i watch these shows only for the company). But I notice no one in their right mind would ever wear these outfits that they wear, but these shows are so popular. Why is that?


People watch these shows to get ideas of what plausible outfit they can get from the chaotic clothing being shown. As I do with almost everything I related this to porn.

Lets face it. I like to watch porn. Its cool to even just have it on in the background sometimes. But its not all about just doing what the hardcore sex scene is showing you you wanna just pick ideas out. I'm not all about doing a hooker in the back alley, but I would like to do a new girlfriend in the backyard.

So the next time your girlfriend makes you watch one of these shows tell her to watch porn with you for a little be so you can delve into your creative side.

Effort

Everyday always seems to be a day where I worked too hard, or I didn't work hard enough. Is anyone able to find the balance?

There is nothing wrong with working hard, but working too hard makes you never want to work again and can break your spirit. We all have our limits, but like every character on the show "MADE" has claimed to be, I want to be the best. But how do you find your limit before you lose you will and just want to quit. No coach to push you but yourself. Nothing to help you fight the pain.

I'm a glutton for punishment searching for success

If you cant fly run
If you cant run walk
If you cant walk crawl
but by all means keep moving
-Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.

....157 days till race day