Dueling

Whats with everyone being so mad!?!? I feel like the entire nation is just getting angry about everything. I wonder if its just a overload of media opinion or if it is just some scared people afraid to be confronted.

I notice there are alot of people who are smart, or are good at pretending to be smart, that can speak their minds and purposely hurt individuals or groups to a point that can be very detrimental to their mind.

I am not on the side of brains in all of this, I'm more on the side of brawn which is why i want to suggest some sort of dueling process to level the playing field. If peopel can hurt me mentally because of all of their work at gaining inteolligence, I should be able to do the same to them using my brawn. It would be allowable for them to decline the duel but they would be forced to wear a sleeve or something that stated they pussed out in a duel against "person who called for a duel" and at what weapon they chose not to duel. On top of that, they would never be able to say anything about the duelee by penalty of fine up to a pre determined amount in court.

It would be beneficial to all because we could record these duels and keep them in the public record for viewing purposes.

What it boils down to is I am a liberal person with the belief that everyone is entitled to their own opinion and wheter they are right or wrong no one deserves to be persecuted over their beliefs. Not with out the opportunity of being punched in the face.

Impulse v. Instinct

Is there a difference between instinct and impulse?

Initially I thought no there is no difference because the way you can recognize them both is by looking at the feeling you receive at the instant you are doing something. But they are very different. The Impulse is led from instant gratification and pushes you to do what will be productive short term. There is no long term happiness with following impulsive decisions.

Instinct is way deeper than the impulse though they are very closely related. Instinct is very powerful and can ward off great danger. The problem with this is the short term thinking can’t always agree with the fast impulse. Understanding why is not the goal of your instinct. Its goal is to get you to feel the right decision. This happens through the effect of you stomach possibly getting butterflies or slight headache or just the lack of control of your body. Why is not your primary objective because it takes to long for you to understand?

The Goal of the impulse is to give you a “what to do” and “why you should do it.” Always easy to figure out. The instinct can give you a “what to do” but not a why. The problem of the instinct is it cant defend against the quick witted impulse. It may take hours or even days. This is why the instinct sends out these deeper signals because it can convince you body before it convinces your mind

Drinking diminishes the instinct which forces impulse to take over.

This explains everything I’ve done wrong in my life

My PhD

I have decided what I will study in my spare time whenever that comes around. For one I want to learn as much as possible about psychology. Second I want to learn how to paint and draw as best as possible.

They are interrelated in the sense that one will help the other. I shall explain...

The study of psychology will lead me to understand the insanity that lies in my own mind. The millions of things I don't understand ultimately teaching me the many options and avenues that are available to walk down.

The art would lead me to express these ideas that I would love to put down on paper and i just don't feel I could show with words.

I come up with what I think would be a great idea for a drawing but I do not have the skills to do it. For example as I was driving today I got the odd feeling liek I was just falling off of the face of the earth. When I got to my destination I saw on the wall a painting of the two hands where god is reaching to touch man. It is a great representation of what may people believe in. To that affect I feel I could to the same, but probably on a much smaller scale. Maybe 5 people would agree with it in the world, but thats enough for me just so I don't feel alone.

Just imagine a picture of the earth and it has a face made up of the rough terrain on the planet like mountains for eyes and a continent for a nose etc. and out of the left eyes is a a hue water fall with a person in it dangling away from the world. Or it could be more like a sad smiley face with the earths general make up on it with a big tear and a small person in it.

But I guess my current life question about everything is..., how can you hold on to everyone in you life and should you?

Had to do it

I was told I needed to write so forgive me if this is incoherent babble. A few truths I have found; 1) to win any argument change the subject to a slight tangent that you are indisputable correct about. 2) There is no female to male double standard 3)People don't actually work in the office

1) I have constant arguments with people in these times being that it is football season. And one thing I have learned is that it doesn't matter what you want to argue is the truth. The winner of the argument is the first one to change the subject.
As a cowboy fan I argue that Demarcus Ware is the fastest most effective linebacker in the league. I get that he isn't and when I have pointed out his stats I hear that Michael Strahan has the most sacks in history. Being a retired Linebacker the point is irrelevant but I am still the one to lose the argument.

2) I keep hearing about this female double standard to being a whore. There is no double standard. Anyone who has sex with a lot of people (which is a relative remark to all) is a whore. Men are just able to be ok with it more. I don't care if any of my friends are whores. I my friend who have had sex with 100 people are just as much as my female friends who have done the same. That still does not at all change if you are a nice person.

I am way more judgmental of the people that a person has slept with as opposed to the amount. If you sleep with a drunk fat smelly guy or girl you kinda disgust me no matter what your sex is. The way the double standard has arrived is in women. Men have not created this. Women HATE women who get a lot of sex and men love to either hang out with them or just have them as a last resort.

The only female whores I hate are the ones who only get with guys because of there financial or social status. But I love all of the women who will disregard that and still sleep with you. And I think that is how the American male population feels in general.

3) I am used to doing installs and being a bottom of the line worker bee. Last Friday my bosses bosses were out so I looked at NFL stats for the first 45 minutes of work. Then I did some work for a couple hours. After that I went to lunch for about 2 hours where I ate and drank a few beers with other workers. Then I came bake to work buzzed worked for a little bit and continued to play football in the warehouse.

I'm not usually working in the office because I have installation to do and its a lot of work. But as soon as possible I plan on going for that really hard office job that everyone tells me about (that was sarcasm about it being hard)

Thats my semi-drunken rant...

Compassion

Compassion is the greatest emotion any human can feel. It is "the humane quality of understanding the suffering of others and wanting to do something about it." Everyone has it in some point of their life. Some for longer than others. I don't know how people lose their way but they do. As I get older I feel more and more people are losing this quality, including myself. Most people with any sort of conscience can feel the suffering of other people but how often do we do something about it. If everyone could live with the full definition of compassion the world would become a much better place.